Monday, October 3, 2011

It's October 3rd.

Because it's rare that I post entries in a row

Hehe, okay. 

It's already October 3rd and it only means that it's already too late for the annual Wish List for October 18. While I don't really get anything I wished for (except once probably from Lian), it is still exciting to write about the things you'd want to receive, right?

During a recent trip, I made friends with this Swiss/German dude after he made comments about my laptop's  wallpaper. He then asked me if I own a blog in which I said yes. He then asked me what I blog about and I said stuff. He then asked what kind of stuff and I told him personal things, like for my upcoming birthday, I'll be writing my wish list and since we're already friends, he should drop by my blog or I'll tag him in my Facebook note so he can choose which item he'll give me. He just laughed about it. Meanwhile, I am serious. 

What also makes this wish list a bit irrelevant is the fact that my friends and I all have work now,so it's either they will get them because they already have money OR they won't, because they know you can afford them. I still hope they get some of these for me. You know, I've been very sad lately. 

And so, just trying out my luck, here's my Wish List 2011 (valid until December 2011 only)

1. Moleskine Film Journal: Because I intend to do a movie review project next year. I want to challenge myself into writing something relevant about a film I've seen. Plus it's so much easier to review something where there is already spaces for your thoughts.

2. Moleskine Tote Bag: I'm such a sucker for carry-alls and no-fuss accessories. I'm known to dump all my stuff inside my bag. This tote bag is so chic, it should be an everyday staple.

3. Earphones: I never really paid much attention to earphones, until the one that goes with my iPod bailed out on me over the weekend. I just want a pair that will get me through all the travelling I do. I don't need the fancy-schamancy type, but something that's grey (or white) and looks decent enough. Also, it has to be the earbud (?) type (seen in photo), not the in-ear (?) type. 

4. Samsung 5" Galaxy Tab: Yes, I hear yah. You would say that it's better off to get iPad instead of the Galaxy Tab, but Androids are huge this year. Plus, it's so small and lightweight. If I'd get an iPad, I might as well bring Berting Tae everyday.

5. Complete 30 Rock Seasons 1-5 Boxset: Since I already have Sex and the City Box Set, I'd want to get 30 Rock this time, hopefully before the season six begins.

So far, that's all I have for now. You'd probably notice the lack of books this year. Fortunately, I bought all the books I wanted to buy; unfortunately, I don't have time to read them. I'll update this entry when I think of other things I'd want to get. For now, let's end this post with Liz Lemon:

I love you, Liz Lemon.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

And for the Opening Salvo

/excess: I just finished a box of pizza tonight and it feels glorious.

For weeks now, I've been meaning to write something about October, the only month that makes me excited because it's my birth month. 

When I was younger, there were years when I don't feel like celebrating my birthday at all, to the point of telling people that I almost forgot it's my birthday (sheesh, who would believe that?) I think this year would  feel the same. Last night, while talking to my friend Dharel, in between 2nd and 3rd floor of Shangri-La, I felt really afraid that in less than two weeks, I'll be in my 23rd year. he has successfully rubbed in my face that a. I am getting older and b. it's scary to get old. 

While I kept my composure despite the inner fear, I thought about all the things he said and wondered, "Why must I be afraid?" I always used to say that age is just the number and that youth is a state of mind (and a noun). But the closer I get to the big day, the closer I realise that it's never going to be easy breezing through another year. That also, the fear of not being able to do anything, stems from the fear that in the next few years or so, you'd become too old to accomplish what you want to do, stay barren, and die of disappointment.

Looking back, I've always wanted to get older. I've always looked forward to turning a year old and acquiring more wisdom and maturity. But as the countdown to my next birthday begins, I am actually afraid to turn a year older without being wiser. Now that I am no longer getting younger, it's getting a bit scarier of making decisions and actions. When you're young, it's easy to make mistakes because you have years ahead of you to make them right. But 23 is not young anymore, so is 24, 25, and so on. Mistakes today are equal to bad evaluation, magnified by "adults" and their horrible reprimanding because they think you're "old enough" to do things right. 

One of my wishes this year is for people and the world to be kind to us, twenty-somethings who want to make the best out of our lives. 

Of course, there are other things I am wishing for, but I'll reserve them for next time!