Friday, December 31, 2010

A-yo, Got to Let Go!

Because a lot of people will agree that 2010 was a so-so year, but not as bad as 2009. Personally, if I press rewind and look at what 2010 gave me, it was pretty decent. There were the best of things (graduation, travelling, new job etc.) and there were the worst of things (break-up, a month of depression etc.) I guess it just happens to most of us, we really cannot have it all. Although we try our best every January 1st to start the year right, there is got to be at least two unfortunate things that are bound to happen within the year. 

But instead of complaining, why don't we take time and reflect (yes, that's the word) on things we learned from all these experiences. Instead of moping and whining, probably it is best that we should be thankful of all the great things that happened in the past year and learn from our mistakes. That's the better spirit!

2010 was something worth celebrating because:
  • My Family, in all ways
  • Our pets: a total of seven dogs, thanks for being stress busters
  • My College friends who despite having different schedules took time to celebrate each other's birthday and the fantastic Christmas party
  • My High School friends, forever supporting my career as a professional dancer and always taking time to plan a meet up and always trying to make them happen
  • Dave, in which I will no longer detail why and what I am thankful for 
  • My work which gives me money to help pay the dues and buy my books and of course my terrific workmates and bosses
  • All the people I met, I loved, hated, inspired me, I inspired, and learned from
  • My growing collection of books. More books, more knowledge
  • The weekends
  • For all the wonderful trips this year. I cannot express how happy I am that I get to discover the country more and hopefully get to see the rest next year
  • All those I forgot, but will forever be grateful for
And for all those bad things that happened, may we all shake off the excess (hatred) and learn. Let go and let live.

May 2011 be a new year of hope and happiness to everybody!
See you all next year. :-)

Just because

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Holidays 2010

For those who don't know, I really have a bad memory. In fact, I cannot memorise to save my life. But if there's one thing amazing about my memory that amazes me to no end is that it remembers things which happened eons ago and I have fantastic photographic memory (according to people I talk to). Really. 

But maybe my memory only chooses what it wants to remember. Because I can't remember when I started having bad Christmas. Those years when I'd rather sleep through an entire Noche Buena because I don't feel like celebrating. I know those were pretty recent Christmases because my childhood memories of Christmas were all fun. I think people who are getting older really fast are those who don't enjoy Christmas as much. Not until something really great happens to them and that's when they start believing about Christmas again.

Truth is, I thought I'll have one of those Christmas again. Having a not so great 2010 which I won't be detailing anymore, I was ready to have another fucked up Christmas. Fortunately, I didn't. I don't know what made it worth celebrating. Despite a whirlwind of unfortunate events, December redeemed the entire year of booboo. 

We didn't have a grand celebration, but it was fun to sit down and laugh with the family which is something we haven't done in a while. Maybe also this time, the Christmas shopping got me on a high! It was fun to give presents and although it will leave you cash strapped, the look on their faces are priceless. It's also great to reward yourself once in a while, especially if you know you deserve them. Being appreciative of what you've accomplished instead of whining is the best way to go. 

And so for the first time after years of dreading the holiday celebration, I was actually happy!

I hope everyone had a great Christmas too :-) 

Monday, December 13, 2010

Day 10- One Thing That Reminds You of “Love”

This has got to be the cheesiest of all the ten items in this meme. Apologies for the late post. My flight back to Manila yesterday got cancelled and interwebz connection in CWC sucked so much. I was also too tired and pissed to do anything last night, I ended up spending my time watching TV, swimming, and having massage. Just got back this morning, went home, and slept five hours straight. It was blissful. I woke up with aching arm muscles. Good Job.

Anyway, what could be that one thing that reminds me of love?

I couldn't put it in A THING. Love manifests in EVERYTHING.


Saturday, December 11, 2010

Day Nine- Two Things That Inspire You

Despite being unbelievably tipsy (or drunk already), I will put something here tonight. But don't expect much details because I can't think clearly. Like the one yesterday, I'll put something else as soon as I have decent connection and I'm not drunk. HEH.

1. Art
2. Some mundane things that unexpectedly turn extraordinary.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Day Eight- Three Places You’d Like To Visit

Writing this in my (freaking) own cabin in Camsur Watersports Complex. Maybe because I know I'll be often here for work, maybe I should have one of these wooden cabins reserved under my name. LOLJK.

The wi-fi isn't so great so if I don't get to post this today, I'll be very disappointed, seriously. 

Anyway, funny how I had this same question asked by my airplane seat mate (the Joey Villar of Phil Star) awhile ago. I gave him three international destinations. Maybe I should separate local and foreign places for this one.

1. Berlin
2. London
3. South Africa

1. Batanes
2. Siargao
3. Siquijor

I shall say why and put some pictures here soon once I get a decent connection. Tonight, I'm going to watch Factory Girl before I go sleep. 

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Day Seven- Four Songs that Mean A Lot To You

Again, one of those ~*serious*~ categories. Laying four songs here that in someway, somehow, meant something in my life. SOME. HEHE.

1. Pictures of You (The Cure): I remember I was 18 and I thought I was in-love or maybe I really was? He's 12 years older (do the math). Quoting Serena van der Woodsen in the latest episode of Gossip Girl, " It felt good to have someone who paid attention to me for a positive reason." I was a college freshman and he's (until now) a member of a group (because saying what group he belongs to will just be a giveaway). He kept me awake until 3a.m. even though I had classes in the morning.  Things were doing good, great even. There were nights of poetry, music, and art. There were days when all I could think of is being with him. But I doubt my parents would approve, because he's not like any other boys (men). Then there was that day that kind of ruined everything. Days became bleak and the next thing I knew, he got himself a girlfriend.

This song, among other songs we exchanged means a lot because it's the first time I've ever cried over a boy and over a song. You see, I'm no crybaby until Senior Retreat and I'm a pain-in-the-ass type of girlfriend in my 'heydays.' I didn't see the point of crying over someone until him. One afternoon,  my iTunes randomly played this song and I found myself in tears while looking at his pictures. SAWRY.


2. (I've Got You) Under My Skin (Frank Sinatra): This song is my childhood. Growing up with a father who's old enough to be my grandpa (sorry pa, hehe), we got all the oldies but goodies played during weekends. Also because he owns the car, he gets to choose which songs are going to get played. When I was younger, he plays a lot of Sinatra, Nat King Cole, Johnny Mathis, Tony Bennet, and the rest of their batch mates. However, it was my boy Frankie who got me. I got to memorise one of his songs and my dad and I used to do duets, especially on New Year's/ his birthday parties. Aside from this song, there's also "Love and Marriage," Strangers in the Night," "Blue Moon," and the infamous "My Way" in our repertoire. 

3. Marching On-Timbo version (Timbaland feat. OneRepublic): If there's a song I'd listen to over and over on bad days, this has got to be it.

4. Your Song (Tres), I Could Not Ask for More (Edwin McCain), and Five Candles (Jars of Clay): In one number, just because. The first song is something he wrote for me, the other two are some of the songs he used to sing. That was almost two years ago. How can something written for you not mean anything? You guys. 

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Day Five- Six Reasons to Keep on Living

OT: Philippine Football Team Azkals made it to semi-finals! Hoorah, Hoorah! As per Lian's tweet, they'll be heading home tomorrow. Why must my flight be on Friday? But then, my friends and I are going to Bacolod next year. I wonder when they'll go there (hopes it will be on April/May)

/edit: They'll play on January. K. Nvm. 

I had a mistake of answering what's for day six yesterday. I know, numbers and I don't mix well. (excuses! Your mother will be very disappointed, young lady. You should start wearing your glasses again!) So here's what's supposed to be for day five.

Today's theme is really ~*serious*~, I don't know how ~*deep*~ my answers should be.

1. My dreams
2. My dreams
3. My dreams
4. The three other guys in my family (Ma, Pa, and Kuya + pets probably)
5. My friends
6. I still haven't found the One (lol on capitalisation) 

If you got no dreams, what's the reason for living, Ayt?

/why am I Gangster tonight? 

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Day Six- Five Fictional Characters You Can Identify With

I guess this one is rather predictable if you know me in real life because I talk about these characters and how my life seems to mirror them in reality. Okay, not all the time, but most of the time. Maybe I just thought so? Anyway.

(Excuse my inability to count properly. I skipped what's really meant for today)

1. Carrie Bradshaw of Sex and the City- Oh yes. I believe most of the SATC addicts can identify most with Carrie. She's the mix of the three girls in the series, don't you think? She can be romantic, aggressive, and headstrong at the same time. Like Carrie, I think I ponder things a lot, usually most of the time. If only we can have her Manolos and Jimmy Choos, raid her closet, be in her apartment, and drink Cosmopolitan with her and the rest of the gals.  Like Carrie, I want my own Mr. Big (dumidumdumdum) and like Carrie, I've had horrible relationships that can pretty much match each of her ex-boys. I was planning on writing something about that, but I guess it's not YET the best time. 

2. Liz Lemon of 30 Rock- This girl and I, we're like twins. Although I wish my life won't be as hell as hers, most of the things she does are almost the same with what I do. We're both awkward too, disastrous even so you can just imagine us being together is probably like hell on earth, or we can both go to coma because we're both clumsy like that. Liz Lemon is tactless. Not her best characteristic, but it makes her charming. She also echoes what I want my future partner to be. 

I want someone who will be monogamous and nice to his mother. And I want someone who likes musicals, but knows to just shut his mouth when I’m watching 'Lost.' And I want someone who thinks being really into cars is lame, and strip clubs are gross. I want someone who will actually empty the dishwasher instead of just taking out forks as needed - like I do. I want someone with clean hands and feet and beefy forearms, like a damned Disney prince. And I want him to genuinely like me. Even when I’m old. And that’s what I want. -Liz Lemon

3. Charlie of Perks of Being a Wallflower- I'm really not a fan of Young Adult lit, but this book got me. Reading Perks of Being a Wallflower is like going through my mind say a few months back. Specifically during March/April this year when I pondered a lot about the people around me. I may not have any problems (or thought about) suicide, abuse, or much about sexuality, but Charlie's thoughts came through me. His were honest musings about life. Maybe the thing about Charlie that I can identify most is he's always thinking about a lot of things- sometimes clouded, often clear. 
So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be. - Charlie
4. Laida Magtalas of A Very Special Love and You Changed my Life- The noble editorial assistant-girlfriend of Miggy Montenegro. Who could forget these movies? I couldn't because I cried when I watched them. Heh. It's funny how we both pine for that person who everyone thinks is hard to love. Someways, we could be that person who loves someone so much we sometimes forget about ourselves. (That's us, Laida, that's us)

We also want that, John Lloyd. 
Mahirap? Yan mahirap? Subukan mo kayang magmahal sa isang katulad mo nang malaman mo kung ano ang mahirap? -Laida Magtalas
5. Esther Greenwood of The Bell Jar- This book is said to be a semi-autbiography of Sylvia Plath, one of my favourite authors. I got my copy of The Bell Jar from a friend who owned it since forever. It took me a really long time to find one and luckily, I was given my own copy (an old edition at that). It became one of my go-to books. There was a time when I was depressed, that I read it religiously. Some of my friends thought it was bad that me being on a rot, was reading something like that. But it gave me relief. Esther Greenwood thought she knew what she wanted, then she became lost. There were a lot of things that happened to her character- from entering a mental institutuion to attempted suicide, to her thoughts on being a woman. This book has been very significant for me, especially now that I'm in the "real world." There were a lot of things we're (eerily) alike, most of them I marked in my copy. 
I took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of my heart. I am, I am, I am. -Esther Greenwood   

Monday, December 6, 2010

Day Four- Seven TV Shows You Remember From Your Childhood

If I hadn't said it too much, I'm going to say it again. My childhood was spent mostly in front of TV. We used to live in a building and my brother and I were not allowed to go out because no. 1: we might fall down the stairs and no. 2: if we go out, we might get hit by vehicles traversing Aurora Blvd. As much as our parents wanted us to go out and meet the world, we couldn't so most of the time, we're in front of the TV flipping channels, fed VHS player with tapes, and built communities with my doll house and my brother's train set. 

Things did not change when we move to a new apartment. Although we no longer live near highway and we can pretty much go out and meet our neighbours, my brother and I chose not too. Instead, we flipped channels, fed VCD/DVD players with CDs, and played Sims. Exciting.

As siblings, we watched TV so much that at one point, our parents hid the remote so we'd take a nap instead. Of course we didn't. So you could just imagine us, getting all the program schedules to a T. No need for TV guide because we got your back. Although we don't watch as much TV now as we did before (due to the scarcity of anything worthy of watching), we still get to watch TV shows, not technically on TV, but downloaded series (rar! rar! rar!) If I get to watch TV, I'd stay tuned most of the time to JackTv. 

So I will take you back to the days when I had more than two channels to watch and give seven TV shows I remember from my childhood.

1. Sineskwela- If some of us wanted to be scientist at some point of our lives, it must be because of this show. We all stay glued in front of the TV by 9:30am everyday and watch Agatom, Anatom, Gat Puno, Buknoy, and the rest of the other characters that made us wish we'd also shrink to get inside small intestine. Science was fun with Sineskwela. We all wished our classes were taught with songs and visuals just like in Sineskwela. Also, we wished our teachers dressed up like Christine Bersola. By the way, the opening notes of Sineskwela's theme song sound so much like Lily Allen's Fuck You (very much? not sure of title)

2. For Kids Only- I don't know if I'm the only one who remembers this show. When I talk about it, most of the people I speak to often give me a blank face. Don't you guys remember Ms. April? How she needed to explain the way toys work? How those (lucky) kids get to play every toy we wished we had? No? Okay. But I remember it, too bad you can't.

3. Daria- Daria Morgendorffer, where do I begin with you? This show kind of made me excited about highschool. Thought it was fun to sit with poker face and observe people hah. Thank heavens I don't have a sister like Quinn. I was kind of flattered when my boss told me I look a bit like Daria. Nananana... Still couldn't find DVD set of Daria in Manila.

4. Diary- "You think you know, but you have no idea..." the famous opening line of this show. If you want to know things about your favourite pop stars, watch Diary. I remember it being shown every 4:30 pm on Saturdays. I also remember Christina Aguilera's because it was shown often. I'm not so sure though if MTV still has this show. Here's part one of Christina Aguilera's Diary, pre-Dirrrty. Watch the rest here

5. Sarah, Ang Munting Prinsesa- Admit it. You wake up early in the morning to watch this. We all rooted for Sarah, hated Lavinia and Ms. Minchin, cried with Lottie, pitied Becky, and most of the girls my age wanted to be Sarah in their circle of friends, or Lavinia if you wanted to bitch out as a kid. By the way, don't pretend you did not watch the movie version. Heh. 

6. WWF- I spent Saturday nights watching fights between the greatest fighters of our time. Mr. Perfect, Hulk Hogan, Shawn Michaels, Bret Hart, Gold Dust, Steve Austin, Mankind (Mick Foley and his deadly socks) Undertaker. Royal Rumble was my favourite wrestling event, so was Wrestlemania. Wrestlers today are all show (although they were also all show then, but I'm biased hehe) I got tired of watching WWE because most of them are whiners. Most of us grew up watching Eddie Guerrero lie, cheat, and steal but did not do so with death and Chris Benoit's star's descent. 

7. MTV Alternative Nation- Long before MTV Pilipinas and its lousy set of VJs, MTV Southeast Asia used to feed our local MTV with shows from US, then Singapore after some time. It was the glory years of MTV, dominating music channel kingdom, until there was Vid-Ok which eventually became Myx. I loved the older MTV, especially this show. I hated the fact that I got to get home around 4pm from Mondays to Thursdays because I don't get to watch this. I also stayed up late, to catch up for the 10:30pm airing. Foo Fighters, Garbage, Smashing Pumpkins, The Cardigans, Alanis Morissette, and the like. I'm not so sure if I saw Nirvana here first too. 

Honestly, I'm quite enjoying this meme. 

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Day Three- Eight Movies that Changed Your Life

As much as I wanted to take this 10-day meme seriously, I cannot find it in my heart to answer properly. Especially this one. Although I guess there could be eight out of gazillion movies I've seen that changed my life, my memory won't function well tonight.

So maybe, I should just list down eight of my favourite movies? That's more rhetorical.

1. Silence of the Lambs- Watched this movie for the first time when I was nine or ten when Pa brought home some VHS tapes from this place we used to rent movies near our former abode. He said this movie is good, won some Oscars and being the type who would watch ANYTHING on TV, I sat next to him and went through the movie. After two++ hours, I was speechless. It was a fuckin' awesome (Did not say the F word then, but it was!) I watched it second, third time and it officially became my favourite movie of all time, Jodie Foster became my favourite actress for some time, and I became fascinated with killers. What a childhood.

2. Mean Girls- It's been a while since we've had something REALLY funny in the big screen. Probably since Mean Girls. If there's one movie I can say random lines at most random times, I'd say a lot from Mean Girls. There was a time when I'd watch this movie over and over (It was summer before fourth year HS I think?) I also got the "Jingle Bell Rock" dance steps memorised. I'm just waiting for a right time and the right boy to show this sexy dance moves to. Rawr. Funny how in high school, some of my batch mates called me Queen Bee, when I wasn't as bad ass as Regina George, but I wish I was. College was extra terrific because one of my girls, Nachi had the lines memorised too! (I love my friends!) I also heard they'll be a Mean Girls 2. Argh. Guys, forget it. Stop saying SEQUEL, SEQUEL isn't gonna happen.

3. Pretty in Pink/Sixteen Candles/The Breakfast Club a.k.a. my favourite John Hughes movies- We all know 80's as decade of fishnet stockings, punk rock, and new wave music. We also know 80's as the decade of teen movies directed by John Hughes (RIP). I know, I should only list EIGHT, but I cannot help it. I just got to list these movies in the same number and pay tribute to one of the best directors there is (was). All three movies got Molly Ringwald (once wanted to be like her), all three movies had teen angst, all three movies had cute boys. Heeeh. Funny the guy in Sixteen Candles had the same name with one of my ex-MU in HS. Plus, who would forget "Don't you, forget about me/don't/don't/don't/don't while throwing fist in the air? I recently watched Easy A and found they had references on most John Hughes movies. Like Olive, I wish John Hughes wrote my life, but he didn't.

Wanted to be Sam, Andy, and Claire.
4. Sleepless in Seattle/You've Got Mail- These Nora Ephron movies never fail to make us all giddy, don't they? Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks have this chemistry that despite having these movies filmed years apart, they still get audiences feel warm and fuzzy after watching. I love them! Makes us think that there is someone, somewhere waiting for us and we'll meet them, despite the means and distance. Hay, sappy love stories.

 I like to start my notes to you as if we're already in the middle of a conversation. I pretend that we're the oldest and dearest friends -- as opposed to what we actually are, people who don't know each other's names and met in a Chat Room where we both claimed we'd never been before. -Kathleen (Shopgirl) to Joe (NY152)
5. Notting Hill- The mother of all princess loves a pauper story of our generation! I don't know anyone who hates this movie, even those who are men enough to cry over happy endings. There was a time when HBO showed it almost every day and every hour that almost all the people I know were watching it, crying. Even Dave enjoyed quoting it so much, it was weird that in almost two days, we exchanged quotes from the movie.

I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her -Anna Scott to William Thacker
6. Wallstreet- It's old, I know. I first saw this movie in HBO (or Star Movies?) and I was sick to my stomach. Did not understand pretty much everything finance related, but it was a good movie. Then I watched it the second time after downloading one (rar rar rar!) The movie's wicked. It made me think how crazy finance is, and oh, Greed is Good. By the way, the part two is good also, but it's not as hardcore as the first one. It's got a bit heart (lulz) because aside from numbers, it got family stuff about Gecko. P.S. Number dude(s), I can marry one anytime, especially if one looks like Shia in motorcycle. 

7. American Psycho- Blood grosses me out, fortunately despite how bloody (and morbid) this movie is, I never get tired of watching it over and over. I finally got the book, but I haven't started reading it yet because I have so much to do. Hopefully by Christmas break or something. Christian Bale, where do I begin? You got some hot butt exposure. Boobs are everywhere. Well written satire. Don't bother watching the part two though. It's horrible. 

8. Going the Distance- Probably the best Drew Barrymore movie I've seen in a while, plus Justin Long is so adorbz. I wonder why they broke up? It's hard to date someone who's very busy, but it's harder to date someone from another place. The perils of long-distance relationship chronicled in this movie. My girlfriends and I ended up "awww"-ing in most scenes. The movie has a wonderful soundtrack too. The Boxer Rebellion, anyone? 

It was hard to come up with eight movies if you got tons of others that you equally love. I want to know yours. Not necessarily movies that changed your life, just your favourites. 

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Day Two- Nine Things You Have Learned About Yourself This Year

There is definitely nothing new about myself this year, I think. Believe it or not, my life has been a cycle of the things past. But in the spirit of the challenge, I will try my best to remember what I learned about myself this year. 

1. Unconsciously, despite people telling me I am gregarious in real life, I want be left alone most of the times. I eat alone for lunch, spend my lunch break walking around Legazpi Village, or going to bookstores alone on Friday nights because that's how I roll.

2. If I had to choose people I hang out with, they must be the same folks I hung out with since forever (or four years ago). I also think letting them go will be very hard for me as much as making new friends again. (#thejeep, maldita)

3. If I really like something, I make it happen.

4. My patience has exceeded my expectations. It was tested so much this year and it wasn't an easy feat. 

5. I love someone too much and I leave a lot of things for people to see. Later on, I realised I should keep to myself and to whoever I am sharing something with the things we do because people don't really need to know so much. Plus, in the end they'll use it against you. Sad reality.

6. I have a tendency to be very sentimental. For example, the scrunchie I am using everyday, it means a lot. I cannot afford to lose it, but I don't want to leave it at home. One time, I thought I lost it, I almost went to tears. Crazy. 

7. It's fascinating that I find myself believing in 11:11 this year. Some of the wishes I made worked, other didn't. But I still do it. 

8. I have been liking the same person for almost 10 years and counting. I hope I do not gross that person out.

9. My comfort food will always be from McDonald's. 

Friday, December 3, 2010

Day One- 10 Facts About Yourself

I have succumbed to this Ten Day Challenge to keep this blog going. I hope I can keep up with this. It's just 10 days, not even 30--- Can you just imagine my commitment?

1. If you ask me about my childhood, I will most probably tell you about the TV shows I watched as a kid. At a young age, you can definitely say I'm a couch potato. I spent so many hours watching TV. I even have some commercials memorised, like the one from Wet Set Inflatables which I wonder nobody remembers. Also this TV show called "For Kids Only," which was responsible in that point of my life when I perpetually asked my parents to get me My Baby All Gone doll.

2. Remember your first crush? I do! It's even weird that at such a young age, I admit that I really have uncanny taste in men (Not that someone I like right now is weird. It's just that my taste varies, unlike some of my friends who like bald, muscular guys, or untidy boys--- Cha and Lian respectively). My first crush was a wrestler. Yup, I watched WWF (before it became WWE) when I was a kid, even staying up just to watch it (Disclaimer: This doesn't mean I have awful parents who allowed me to stay up late, Ok?) One time, during a match, Mr. Perfect was beaten up so badly, I cried to my mom and told her to stop the fight, which of course she can't do. My dad who was taking a bath at that time, had to wash off the soap quickly to tell me that it's not real. There goes my childhood, ruined. 

You're my old school love, RIP
3. I buy books more often than I buy clothes (which I think is pretty obvious). If I had to buy new clothes, I go to three (it used to be just two) stores: Bench, Nafnaf, and Zara. If I don't have money, I go to thrift shops. If you ask me, I'd rather shop in Ukay or in Cubao X, than in malls.

4. When I'm mad, I don't talk and I cry. 

5. I like my bread toasted twice. The more toasted, the better, then I put butter. During my first trip to Camsur, I ate a lot more toasted bread than say, Laing Pizza even if I know it's supposed to be must-taste because it's their specialty. I eat toasted white bread on a regular basis. I don't like wheat bread because I am not weight conscious. Truth be told, I wanna get fat. 

6. When I make decisions, I usually talk to myself out loud, in English. 

7. I hate borrowing stuff from other people, as much as I hate lending my stuff to them--- except if I know you're someone I can share things with like Lian. 

8. If I could, I would like to move out of our house and live on my own. I have been wanting to get an apartment/unit and probably bring home some boy(s)--- KIDDING. 

9. I am dying to get a tattoo. I know I have the craziest skin ever. But all I can think of is getting myself inked one of these days. I have already decided what I want to put, like my favourite word (starts with F if you want a clue) on my right wrist, tattooed in white ink. The words "I am, I am, I am" from Sylvia Plath's Bell Jar somewhere I haven't decided yet or "This is not an exit" from American Psycho. I also thought about putting wayfarer on my nape, heh something without any significance really. My former mentor Ms. Eva got some really cool tattoos and she showed them to me. I especially liked the one on her legs. I'm envious. 

10. I need something to believe in.